I'm kind of surprised I haven't quit this yet. It's turned into something different than it started and lately I haven't been feeling like I have much I want to share. So the writing, admittedly, has been boring and surface. I do, however, love the habit of writing daily in some kind of capacity. AND, to think that I've done something consistently for 171 days in a row is something to feel good about.
Work has gotten better. I'm really enjoying the kids lately and my boss and I seem to be in a pretty good place.
Mostly, I'm just wondering what my next steps are. It's like I feel big things under the surface, but the vision is unclear. I'm not sure what it'll be, what it'll look like. I just know what it feels like. I was talking to my mentor last week about the unknown. About how so many stresses and worry come from not knowing how things are going to be in the future. Yes. Exactly.
And he was saying how good scientists love the unknown.
I'm pretty sure I'm not a scientist yet, but I would love for my relationship with the unknown to change. I would love it if it excited me to not know. It's baby steps I suppose. I don't know what my day will be likely (entirely) tomorrow, and I'm not freaked out.
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