Challenge 133: Clean the kitchen (ugh)

May 24, 2010

Phew...I've had a very full Monday, to start off my very full week. It feels good to be busy. Right now is the first chance I've had to write. I'm sitting here quietly in the living room, listening to cars go by on the street. The animals are both curled up on various places on the couch. Bucket, in his normal right-by-the-window spot, and Coach, on his half of the couch. Today just went on, task by task, call by call, work, dog walk, gym, emails, clients, calls, errands. I got everything done I set out to do, except one thing, which I'm sure will become my challenge in this last hour of my day.

Yesterday, the challenge was to get the belief closet work done. And I did it. I finished all the reading and homework and guided my partner through the whole procedure. At the end, I asked for feedback and he said something very honest and interesting, and it hit me right at the core. I had never gotten such candid feedback. It was kind of hard for me to hear, but I was so grateful that he said it. I made myself kind of sick thinking about it, stomach ache and all, but that just told me that it was something I really should look at. And so I did. Before bed. When I woke up. And during my session with that same client today, when he was guiding me through the process. The best I can come up with is that I'm still learning. I can't jump from novice to expert without a lot of little steps in between. I need to be patient with myself in those steps and take all feedback and all negative feelings as part of the learning. I know how far I've already come in the 9 months since I started coach training, and I can only go up from here. It's just getting through the humps.

Oh!! I also had a really cool thing happen today. I had been really wanting this one thing to happen and really believed it would. Then doubt started to enter my mind, and I kept reminding myself that I could make it happen. This weekend I said to myself "I'm so excited that they call me on Monday," and guess what?! They called me on Monday. It's interesting too that part of the belief I was looking at in my practice with the belief closet today was "I can make happen whatever I want."

This is getting fun.

Challenge 133: Clean the kitchen (ugh)

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