Challenge 120: Write

May 11, 2010

It's just one of those days where everything seems to be going wrong. The toilet seat is unhinged and flopping around, the lever that makes the bath water into a shower won't go into the shower position, the house is a disaster, work got cancelled, etc. It's hard to not feel like I'm being tested right now. I know Vaughn would probably look at it through positive glasses and not take it all so seriously, but I'm having a hard time not being emotional about everything right now. I know the drill, however. When things are not going great, try to look on the bright side. Or try to remember all those wonderful things in my life that I am grateful for. And I'm trying to do that stuff too.

The puppy is pacing about the house, ready for his walk. The plan WAS to shower, then go out for a jaunt. I'm going to get that dang shower to work!!!!

I want to change my attitude around today. It's not serving me well to be in the emotional space I'm in, although I do believe that I should be allowed to feel whatever I'm feeling. I want to feel it all, recognize it, but also get something good out of it all. Right now I'm in a challenging place. I generally shy away from challenge. If something doesn't work out right away or if I'm not great at something right out the gates, then I tend to want to not do that thing. But in this case, I just have to get through it. Shying away isn't an option.

My mom reminded me this morning that I wasn't always a good performer/rocker on stage. That I started out timid and scared, and I ended up confident and powerful. I put in a lot of time and effort for it to be that way. So I know I have it in me. I just need to keep going and get through it.

On my plate today is coaching homework (LOTS), coaching certification program work, puppy, cleaning the house, laundry, clients stuff, and writing. I pretty much think I'll get most of that stuff done, but what I think would really be a challenge is the writing. I made a deal with a friend of mine that I would send him an intro and 2 chapters of my book, that I haven't even started, by the end of May. Now THAT'S gonna be a challenge for me. So today, I must work on it.

Challenge 120: Write

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