Challenge 75: Study coaching

March 26, 2010

It's my sister's birthday today! Happy birthday to her.

Today is cold! Well, not all that cold, but I'm cold. Even had to turn on the heater. I was getting too used those warm, tank-top weather days. The animals got up extra early today, while it was still dark out. I was able to sleep through it for the most part.

The past couple days I've been struggling a little, trying to keep the ideas I had last weekend alive and present for me. I feel like this is a pattern I get into. Big burst of ideas, complete visions of how it should go, extreme confidence, and then a completely deflated feeling of "it'll never happen, it's too hard, it wasn't that great of an idea after all," etc. I think all these things are fear based, but it's such a familiar pattern and it scares me. I made a declaration to myself that THIS is the time where I change that pattern around. Where I really start going for it. Not caring what anyone says, just DO IT. But I'm finding that energy is fizzling a little bit (or a lot bit) and I don't like it at all. UGH! It's so easy and so familiar to feel this way, that this is the safety blanket. When I start making progress, I just hold myself back. I hate it. So unfortunately, that's here for me today. And it's in my stomach, like a pit.

As for my challenge for yesterday, I didn't finish the intro, but I did work on it. I realized that part of giving myself tasks to do is also giving myself enough time to do them well. I am happy that I worked on the intro and I want to keep working on it and keep going back to it as I get new ideas for it. I consider that a success.

Today is all about coaching. I want to study, work on my skills, gain more knowledge. It is what inspires me. And I want to feel inspired. I'm going to take the puppy out, and then it's coaching stuff from here on out for the rest of the day.

Challenge 75: Study coaching

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