Challenge 68: Do some art surrounding my vision

March 20, 2010

I came home after a very long day at school (7:30am-6pm)to find that the puppy had been taken to a BBQ with the neighbors. I love my dog so much, but I can't tell you how amazing it feel to come home and not have to worry about whether or not the dog has chewed on anything, or taking him out on a long walk immediately. There is such a sense of freedom!! I'm trying to knock this out and get some alone time before he gets back.

Today at school was absolutely incredible. It's such a different experience being an assistant to being in the actual class. We are there to help the leaders with whatever they need (like refilling coffee and water, or sitting in on some coaching)but for me, I'm there to deepen my learning of the material and just see what shows up for me being in that environment again. And what showed up for me is just so incredible and so exciting!! Everytime I come back from one of these courses I realize how utterly important it is for me to have a community of coaches. Of people who speak the same language. It's so much fun. Every conversation turns into mini-coaching and I love that! But what today was about for me was coming back to an old dream I had. One that has always been there under the surface (for over ten years!) but I haven't been looking at lately. It just hit me, so hard, that that is what I am supposed to do. What I want more than anything. I can see it. I know exactly what it feels like, what it looks like, even what I'm wearing!! I know the colors of the walls and the kind of flowers on the desk. And I know who I have to be in order to have those things. I feel like I'm slowly coming back to myself. My whole self that combines "Sally Hope" the bass chick, and Sally Freedenberg the person. I'm finding myself wanting to step into bigger shoes. New shoes!! (If you will :-) It is exhilarating. And I want to talk with my coach on how to really live from this place from here on out. My heart is pounding and I feel an excited energy in my stomach. Butterflies. My drive home was unlike any drive I've had in years. I sang to the music...LOUD and saw things I'd never seen before, although I've done that drive a million times. This coaching stuff is unbelievably powerful.

My challenge for today is about keeping this dream present for me. For making it visual. For feeling it. I want to stay in it as long as I can tonight and set up a system where I start to operate from it. I want to make a declaration, out of all this.

One year from today, I AM doing what I love for a living.

Challenge 68: Do some art surrounding my vision
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