I'm very frustrated again with work, more than I want to say right now. My chest is tight and I'm just feeling fed up. I'm tired of having to fill in the gaps doing this. I'm tired of needing it. When the FUCK am I going to feel like I can do it on my own?!?!?! Probably when I actually believe I can. This is just ridiculous.
When did I get so wimpy?? I'm too in it. I can't see anything objectively right now.
My blood is boiling and I want to yell and cry all at the same time. And the thing is...nothing really that big happened. It's a feeling I've had, underneath, simmering for awhile. It's been dormant for a couple months and now it's on the surface. FUCK THIS.
My values are definitely not being honored in this current situation, and yet, I can't really see a way out of it. I feel like I've tried different things. So what's the stuck common denominator?
Ugh.
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