Challenge 193: Demon Messages

There are a million reasons why I shouldn't do the things I really really want to do.

What if I fail? What if I succeed? What if I can't do it? What if I'm not as great as I thought? What if it's too hard? What if it's a stupid idea? What if I don't follow through? It'll never work? It'll never happen? I can't do it. I'll never be able to do it.

And I've also come up with an elaborate system that proves all these things to be true. And just like clockwork, it's works like a charm every time. It's the same pattern. The same messages flash in my mind. At the same moments in the process. I think it's the most efficient thing I've ever done...stopping myself from great things.

I feel so silly about it. And being a coach, I even feel sillier. As if helping other people through their silly demon messages gives me license to not have my own. Wrong. Mine are still loud and clear. And what I tell my clients, is that those messages and voices get louder and more clear the closer YOU are to doing something really great...something you really want.

So, ok. Yeah. Great.

And it's just pushing through and doing it anyway. My teacher/mentor/friend talks to me all the time about doing things in increments. I don't have to have it all, perfectly, right now. That it's building blocks. But the problem is that the way I usually operate is that not only do I want it NOW, and PERFECT and AMAZING, but I think that I should have it now, and if I don't, then it must not have been a good idea. UGH!

Well, now, I finally see the errors of my way. So it's a matter of being patient and practicing the build. And not worrying abut the outcome, or income for that matter. Just take little steps and start somewhere. I've been having anxiety all week about something I told my coach I would do. Maybe it's because it's the first step. Of going public. Sort of.